there is much that I want.
Sometimes my list looks eerily like a letter to Santa.
I want this…
I need this…
I must have this…
All things that I think will make me happy.
But none of them bring you glory.
I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my eye upon you.” (Psalm 32:9)
And then I am quickly reminded of what brings You glory.
You are glorified when I seek to be instructed by You.
You are glorified when what I want is You.
You are glorified when my happiness is wrapped up in You.
You are glorified when I am satisfied in You.
And so I seek instruction from You.
I seek wisdom from You.
I seek to glorify You.
And therefore, all I want for Christmas is YOU,
All I want for Christmas is YOU.
The (seeking) Pastor -|—
Sometimes I wish I had a crystal ball and
sometimes I wish I had an email that laid everything out.
Sometimes I wish you would mail out a memo and
sometimes I wish you would shout from a mountain top.
Sometimes I wish you would hire a plane to fly a banner across the sky and
sometimes I wish you would even send me Morris code for me to decipher.
But You don’t do those things,
for You do things in a better way;
for You are far more
You, oh God, do things in a way that I need to trust You.
sometimes I get impatient.
Sometimes I become irritable.
Sometimes I do not trust you.
Send Your Holy Spirit and speak to me.
Send Your Holy Spirit and convict me.
Send Your Holy Spirit and draw me closer.
And may my sometimes be taken away that I may always,
speak to me, Lord,